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Name: Melissa
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Dayton
Birthday: 1/31/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: .a boy i always lose. my wonderful friends, art, photography, drawing, erotic art, fetish art, music, dead roses, sleeping in, daydreaming, being the one and only ice queen. Yeah that's me.



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listening to these bands: Emery, Mae, Cradle of Filth, Zao, Panic! At the Disco, the Used, the Devil Wears Prada, Beneath the Sky, August Burns Red, Haste the Day, Dead to Fall, Atreyu, Unearth, Otep, Kittie, It Dies Today, Norma Jean, Remembering Never, Premonitions of War, My Ruin, Children of Bodom, Martyr AD, My Chemical Romance, Sea Turns Red, Bloodlined Calligraphy, Walls of Jericho, Burnt By the Sun, Bleeding Through, Darkest Hour, Jack off Jill, Silverchair, Dimmu Borgir, As I Lay Dying, & Lacuna Coil to name a few..


& getting my heart broken.



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Member Since: 9/24/2005

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Currently Listening
Villainy & Virtue
By Dead to Fall
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You're going to miss what you could've had --
a girl that would have done anything to be your everything.


I should be over him I know but I'm not. & this whole not talking thing is killing me...I know he has said this before but I'm afraid that it really is for good this time.

In my heart I know that he will realize how stupid he's being & come back to me like he has before but I could easily be mistaken.

In the meantime I have to move on and act like none of this is affecting like one of my friends told me to do. & well. There are 2 guys that are interested in me that I could get to know better...we'll see how that goes.

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[Well. Jesse & I are talking again. At least we did last night..we were on the phone until like 4:30am...it was great talking to him again but I'm not getting my hopes up of anything happening he seems to be only worrying about one thing right now it's not women. He seems to be unhappy with his life so I'm gonna do my best to be here for him. <3. I love him. More than words could ever describe.]


Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Do you know
How it feels
Lying here without you baby
You could never understand what's happening to me
So alone
Nothing's real
I just dream about you baby
And forever wonder why you had
To break free

Even though you're not my lover
Even though you're not my friend
I would give my all
To have you here
Just to hold you once again

It's so hard
To believe I don't have you right beside me
As I long to touch you
But you're out of my reach
And my heart doesn't feel
It's so very cold inside me
Just a shadow of someone that I used to be

Even though you're not my lover
Even though you're not my friend
I would give my all
To have you here
Just to hold you once again

You were the only one
That I allowed inside my heart
Now I'm just holding on
To something so far gone
Where did I go wrong??




New pics? What?!







There are more but I don't feel like putting anymore up.

[<3]


Sunday, April 30, 2006

Haste the Day tonight! Bitches. The only sucky part is that my wifey can't go! : ( Allie. I love you.

This weekend has been pretty good. The hightlight of it was spending the entire day with Jesse yesterday at KilKare and hanging out at his house afterwards. His dad's car is sweet and is my personal favorite and he should've won that first round. GAY! But anyway...I will never take off this braclet Jesse made me out of his pants. haha. It's cute.

[<3]


Tuesday, April 18, 2006

...And in the blink of an eye

It's all going to hell again.

Shoulda seen it coming...

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Monday, April 10, 2006

Currently Listening
Deathgrip on Yesterday
By Atreyu
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This spring break has been amazing.


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He still has this thing that makes my heart...

Melt

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